Technical difficulty

Okay, maybe I lied when I said four kids was not that bad. I have absolute no motivation. I say I want to lose the weight, that I am not happy with being a size 15/16, but in all reality, I am comfortable right now with the way I am. Emotionally, not so much, but it just can't kick me into gear. I am one of those people that since I have a gym membership, I think I am doing good. What is wrong with me?
I am about to go to my ten year high school reuinion. Yes, I know I just had a baby, but I still want to look good. Some of friends have yet entered motherhood, and they still look amazing just like they did ten years ago. I also have friends who have had two or three, and still look amazing. I want that. I want to wow everyone. Now, granted, I know that getting to my goal weight before June 19 is so not happening, but I still want it. Is that my motivation? Is that going to be my drive?
I watched Biggest Loser, and was amazed at how all of them did. Well, some did not do as well as the others, but no one gained weight, I would be the one who gained weight. What am I saying? As I am writing this post, I feel I am setting myself up for failure. Maybe it is just today. I need a partner, someone who gets me off the couch and kicks my a%$. Excuse my french, but really people. I need someone to say, "HEY YOU CAN'T EAT THAT, or HEY LET'S GET MOVING. WHY DRIVE WHEN WE CAN WALK?" Where are you? Where is my saving grace?
Okay, snap out of it. Tons of women do this on their own. My friend Lesa looks great and she did it by herself. Hope it's okay to plug you. So, why did I start this blog? For this very reason. So, I can sit and vent about my day. I will do it. I am going to do it. Today is tomorrow, and let's get started. PLEASE help keep me going. I want to burn the fat clothes!!

Welcome... Day 1

Hello, and welcome to MY BLOG. I love my family blog, but sometimes I find that it gets cluttered with my family. Well, duh, it is a famiyl blog. I have started this blog today mostly as a a journal of myself and also just a place where I can write about stuff (not related to kids or what not). My days of maternity clothes are over, and I have been itching to get back on the bandwagon of exercise. I am also going to use this blog as a place to update my own successes, keep track of things that are easy, hard, and what to avoid. aka junk food.
If you want to keep reading, great, if not, please feel free to not read, but please continue to read our family blog. It is our way of letting our friends and family into our lives. If you do choose to read, leave my comments and suggestions. I am sure we can all use a little pick me up in this area, and us women and moms can help each other out. Hopefully it won't be too boring, I will try to post fun pictures, recipes and neat exercise techniques. Okay here goes.......